pinkeuphoria1

akame_

So sadly to say here is what I can offer this summer but thank you for those who are dedicated in reading my work (O...it's my first PG13/15ish akame fic too LOL)

Title: Inside the Black Box...The Memories that are to be Remembered
Pairing: Akame
Raiting: PG-13/15
Genre: Agnst, Real life-ish
Disclaimer: I have no connection with members of the JE. This story is fictional and may cause alot of tears =P
Summary: Kame returns home to his lonely apartment after a long stressing day of work. He noticed someone has enetered leaving him a box of heartbreaking moments but happy memories...~ A self reflection of these beautiful eventful years.
Beta:pinkeuphoria1 
A/N: This fic entry is for the akame_  2011 one-shot fic contest. It has been a while I have written, I am sorry for those who are following my old fics but now it is on hold, and thank you again for those who are waiting for the others to finish.

“Jin! Let me explain!” Kame shouted as he quickly ran to Jin, pulling at his sleeve at the end of the Shock performance. Kame looked pale and Jin frowned when seeing how much weight he had lost since Kame had started recording Nobuta wo Produce. Pale thin hands pulled at his sleeve and if Jin pulled away, he was afraid that he might break the wrist.

Jin was tired of all the bullying and silent treatment given to Kame by all the band members but he had felt the betrayal as well. Failing the audition to play Akira so that he could star in the same drama with Kame and now their boss declaring that Kame and Pi, his best friend, would be debuting as Shuuji and Akira with a CD? It was the worst betrayal one could ever receive.

“Kame… you betrayed us…” Jin sighed, “We were all hoping to debut but…why Shuuji and Akira?” with that, he brushed against his shoulder and walked away. What was left was Kame in the locker room with tears falling from his eyes, and Jin not being there to wipe them away and to reassure him that everything would be fine. Because it wouldn’t. He had betrayed KAT-TUN and he had betrayed Jin.

~*~

It's a long road
And you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold

~*~

“Kame!” Jin shouted as Kame collapsed after Dream Boys. The fight yesterday with Ueda hadn’t left him in such a good state, as the bruise hidden by the make-up Jin had helped Kame apply could still be visible. But he really should have made Kame stay inside and not perform, as his eyes showed exhaustion yet determination to finish. Jin knew though that he couldn’t stop Kame from continuing such an important performance which might determine whether KAT-TUN would debut or not.

“Stop doing this to yourself!” Jin was worried as he pulled Kame up and helped him to the dressing room.

“I will be fine… just give me some medicine and water and I can go back to stage…”Kame weakly tried to get up.

“No! You are staying here, Kamenashi Kazuya, I will take your role if needed but you are staying here to rest. No one knows your role better than me!” Jin angrily scolded.

“Akanishi…”Kame tried to get up but he was pushed down again, “I saw every practice… every single one, even when you stayed at night till the sun rose. You are overworking yourself so that you can get everyone’s forgiveness, but I won’t forgive you if you hurt yourself like that again…”Jin quickly replied with anger in his voice.

“Jin…” tears appeared in Kame’s eyes, “Can … I call you that again?”

“Then stop calling me by my last name…” Jin leaned in to rest his forehead on Kame’s, closing his eyes, “Just rest and let me take care of it…”

~*~

Kame frowned again, thinking about the times performing without Jin. He could understand that Jin might have felt betrayed while he had debuted with a single with Jin’s best friend. But it really did hurt at times when Jin explained how Yamashita was his best friend and no one else. Who was he to him then?

The thought lingered onto him till now; it was so frightening that in the past this thought had made him feel so upset and he would just work more and more to forget. The feeling of everyone isolating him and bullying him about how he was allowed to debut first, something which had made many people angry, including his band. The fans were also angry at him, saying he had betrayed KAT-TUN, and then there were those who just hated him in general. Kame had to learn it the hard way that not everyone liked him. Still, in order to get people to accept him, he worked even harder, danced more, staying overnights and practicing every move over and over again for Dream Boys. Eating wasn’t an option until he had almost fainted in front of Jin.

He had felt warm when Jin held him close that time, or the time when he had fallen from the three meter stage while doing a backflip. Jin had been beyond frightened to see what had happened and had tried to help him throughout the whole concert as he was still in a lot of pain, despite the painkillers. He remembered the morphine shot had made him feel dizzy and tired but his waist always felt warm, with an arm supporting him, and he knew it was something he could lean on if anything happened.

~*~

You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

~*~

“Jin…I’m in love with you…” Kame blushed as he confessed, looking down to hide his face. Jin’s wish had come true: the one he had fallen in love with was returning his feelings. He reached out to pull the smaller body closer to his, holding onto it dearly, inside the quiet concert hall where they would finally perform together as their debut concert.

“Tell me this isn’t a dream…” Jin spoke in his ear, as Kame looked up and smiled brightly; his eyes spoke of love as Jin leaned in to finally feel the lips that he had always wanted to taste despite all the girls he had dated, as none could compare to the popular Kamenashi Kazuya.

They kissed on the quiet stage in the hall which would be filled by thousands and thousands of fans tomorrow. Tomorrow they would be two different persons, celebrities of the famous band KAT-TUN one that would make the world go wild for them.

~*~

He never thought Jin would have chosen him out of everyone in the crowd; there were beautiful girls Jin had dated or ones that surrounded them. Kame thought he was neither beautiful, nor gentle or anything Jin had wanted as lover. He always thought these feelings for Jin would be kept secret and locked inside his heart as he stayed by Jin’s side. Kame was always scared to reveal his feelings for him, thinking that if he ever confessed, Jin would find him dirty or disgusting and their friendship or whatever relationship they had would have ended.

The love confession however had been so sweet that it was like a dream come true. It felt like yesterday that he had just kissed Jin for the first time; the same with the first time when he had given himself to him. The night had been so romantic, his heart melting as Jin spoke endearing words of love to him. His lips felt so warm after the first contact and already wanted more to express how he felt. It felt like everything would be bright and beautiful from then on.

Kame leaned back onto the couch that he loved to sit on with Jin, reaching out for the remote control to turn on the TV, seeing those old replayed drama airing at the late night. He remembered how he used to watch them with Jin while fighting over who got to hold the turtle plushie and not really caring what was shown on TV. He held the turtle plushie into his arms as he thought of the sweet moments he and Jin had shared on this couch: cuddles, kisses, hugs, word of endearment and love which led to heated moments in the bed they shared.

He held the turtle plushie closer to him and remembered how Jin took it with him to a photoshoot hugging it and smiling brightly. That cute picture of Jin made him felt that Jin was trying to tell the word he belonged to him. He belonged to Jin but Jin never belong to him and now the warmth from the turtle will no longer be there, the smell no longer linger the smell of Jin. He leaned his head forward to the turtle to let the turtle absorb his tears, his tears of loneliness.

~*~

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive

~*~

It always felt like a dream when he was with Jin. There were also bitter feelings but he knew there were always solutions to the problems, and the love they both felt for each other was real and strong. Kame knew that whenever he would feel lost and lonely Jin would feel it too and sooner or later they would be back together again.

Being with Jin made him feel secure with everything they did together. He knew that when he sang and made a mistake, Jin would cover it up or would make a mistake as well when singing after him. Such actions clearly made the fangirls scream, while others tried to use it to break KAT-TUN apart.

~*~

“I can see that both of you are getting closer day by day… This will be a warning, Akanishi, Kamenashi, don’t give the paparazzi or the newspaper any ideas to write that I, Johnny Kitagawa are promoting homosexuality in my company.” Johnny looked at both of them with strict eyes, “From now on all your activities will be done separately after the shooting of Gokusen 2. If there are still any comments about both of you being in a relationship, there will be consequences.”

The two stood quietly with their hands behind them, elbows slowly reaching out to brush together to reassure each other that it was ok and nothing was found out.

So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Oh ho, Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away, hey yea

~*~

The tabloids showed the news of Akanishi Jin leaving KAT-TUN for a hiatus. Kame had tried to remain as composed as possible when Jin had told him that he would be leaving for the States to stay low from the paparazzi. His heart felt so lonely already; how could he survive without Jin for this long and how long would Johnny decide to keep Jin there? Six months like any other visitor’s visa to America?

The uncertainty was there: would Jin find someone there? Would he be forgotten when Jin got to see different parts of the United States and like to stay there? Would Jin change?

He still hid behind his façade, telling Jin how excited he was. A part of him was definitely excited for Jin to get to experience meeting new people in a foreign country, but the other part…

~*~

It was definitely a punishment from the boss, because he and Jin were too close and making their relationship too obvious. It came to the point where their colleagues were making fun of them about how they acted like a married couple when they were together. Johnny however was definitely not impressed with what the media was writing about them and thought that it would ruin the Johnny’s Entertainment reputation.
The lecture was long as Kame remembered knowing that, when Jin returned to Japan, he would not be allowed to be in contact with Jin unless it was work-related and with the other members of KAT-TUN. How there would be a distance between them and he would call Jin “Akanishi-kun” when they were at work.

He remembered how he and Jin each had another phone that they hid in their bags, a pair that had been bought under fake names with the help of their friends so that they could stay in touch with each other.
The phone that Jin used to communicate with him was also in that black box. Kame reached out to turn it on and saw the wallpaper was a picture of him. He slowly typed ‘I love you’ on Jin’s phone to send it to himself. His matching phone vibrated in his pocket; as wallpaper, it had a picture of Jin and then it showed the message he had written to himself. Kame smiled sadly at the phones as he turned both of them off and took out his work phone to cancel the phone program the private phones had.

As he spoke to the phone company, he cancelled the phone program successfully, without being charged for anything. Kame turned the phones on again to see that they had no reception. He turned off the phones again, knowing this was also the end of the secret way to communicate with Jin.

~*~

“Uhhh…I’m back?” Jin spoke in his microphone during the concert, with the fans screaming inside the Tokyo Dome.

It was the first time he got to see Jin, who according to Johnny would return to KAT-TUN on the following day. How he wanted to wrap his arms around him and tell him how much he had missed him and kiss those lips again. He knew though that he wasn’t allowed to approach Jin again as he professionally talked to him in front of the fans. Jin stepped back as Kame called him Akanishi-kun in front of all their fans.

“I don’t like it…”Jin frowned,

“Don’t like what?” Kame asked as he placed his things in the bag,

“I don’t like how you called me in such a cold way, Kame…in front of all the fans tonight,” Jin replied,

Kame sighed, “I was told to do it that way, and it’s even on our script for Cartoon KAT-TUN,” Kame looked for his file in his bag to give a copy of their script to Jin.

Jin looked at the script, “And we can call Tanaka, Koki… how ironic is that?” Jin threw the script behind him as he pulled Kame closer to him, “I don’t care what will happen, I can’t stand not being there with you, if we need to fight Johnny this time-“

“I don’t want to wreck your future, Jin…” Kame sighed, “I hate hiding too…but…” he finally reached up on his toes to kiss the one he loved on the lips he had missed during the last six months.

~*~

Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time, you find the way, hey

~*~

“Jin!” Kame ran to the door as he quickly kissed the other, “I’m so happy for you!!”

“It’s just a movie in Japan, it’s nothing big… I bet you will be doing one soon too…” Jin smiled.


“But you get to write your music along with it! I am so excited for you,” Kame smiled brightly, “It would be such great music, I can so imagine it becoming an album, then I will buy so many copies to help the sales,”

Jin kissed Kame’s forehead and leaned into the embrace, as the offer was just too sweet not to accept. He would work hard on this and maybe get one step closer to fulfilling his dream…

~*~

BANDAGE was a great movie, Kame thought, and he watched it again and again; even when Jin was over during one of their movie nights, he would request to watch it. It was a great movie but many times he could notice that Jin wasn’t watching the movie but seemed lost in his thoughts about something. Probably thinking and reflecting on how much freedom he was able to have with the people in LANDS or maybe thinking how he should redo parts of his acting. It was hard to guess what Jin was thinking now and back then Kame was able to read Jin’s mind all the time.

He could now sing every song from BANDAGE, even the ones released on the album, Olympos. Kame remembered waking up alone in the middle of the night and seeing Jin wake up early or stay up late to work on composing the music or writing the lyrics. He knew Jin had spent a lot of effort and time on composing and writing lyrics, it was something Jin could finally focus on and aim for. The songs Jin wrote always had a meaning behind it and now he finally understood some of the meaning behind it. He knew Jin always wanted to have something more other than being in KAT-TUN but the feeling of responsibility on his shoulder and leaving the band would made him think that he would betray KAT-TUN.

A PAGE described the struggles of his aims in life and Jin’s future, his frustration of being stuck in one place, how Jin would love to go elsewhere to explore his future and sadly Kame couldn’t step in but could only watch him from afar. Kame knew Jin would decide on something soon, maybe to leave KAT-TUN and become a solo artist. While he hoped that Jin would stay in KAT-TUN, he knew Jin would never be happy and would hate him in the future. Still, it was hard to let go…

~*~

Then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive

~*~

His bold performance of 1582 definitely showed everyone who was one of the main performers for KAT-TUN. The dramas that he was asked to act in and the collaboration with Kimura Takuya had definitely allowed Kame to increase his popularity as a KAT-TUN member. He was busy and probably the busiest out of all the other band members. This had made Kame stay away from his bandmates, making friends from the Jimusho like Tegoshi and Uchi. He knew Jin saw his performance the first night of the concert from backstage, as he got the fans excited, compared to what Jin had conducted, Wonder which made a very nice contrast. But Kame knew Jin could have done much much better.

As Kame watched Jin in the backstage, he thought why would Jin resang care again for this year’s album? But sang Wonder in the concert? Is there something behind it? Yes they tend to sing other solos to people who attend the concert but Jin’s sudden request of getting care into the album was awkward. Even the fans on blogs were questioning what is going on. Kame tried to stay on the positive side, Jin is busy, he wasn’t able to write any song while he was busy with the movie…the chill made him shiver and the thought of letting go of Jin will be sooner or later…can he bear it?

~*~

Kame was right about the fact that Jin was hiding something. Jin was more withdrawn from the group members and tended to wear glasses for his recent appearances. His clothing selection showed something about it too, as Johnny didn’t complain on his behavior and seemed to be satisfied with the performances. He also noticed from the people who wrote lyrics and music for them in the music, Jin had less solo parts and more accompanying other members. Even though it sounded good, Jin did not take any major part in singing most of their music. If the composer and lyrists structured their songs in this way, it must have been because of Johnny’s orders. Kame didn’t dare to talk to Johnny because Johnny could possibly figure out there was still a relationship between him and Jin, while he had promised in front of his manager and Johnny that there was nothing between him and Jin.

Kame figured Care really meant something to him as he thought it was a reply to his song Kizuna, telling about how Jin cared for him and didn’t know how to express his love. He had changed the lyrics to the new version of Care for a reason and Kame understood: he could now feel that Jin was singing so that he could finally let go of what he cared and allow it to blossom on it own.

With understanding the lyrics, he knew he had to remain strong even if Jin was no longer there as a member of KAT-TUN, but knowing he will be there to support him from far away, his heart calling out to him on how he would miss him and still love him.

~*~

So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

~*~

And finally the pair of pinky rings… the rings still shone as they were placed near the turtle plushie which he had placed back into the black box. Kame reached out to the rings as he remembered how he had been so angry at Jin when finding out from Johnny about him leaving the band. Kame had taken his own gold ring and thrown it at Jin, giving a horrible ending to their relationship. Tears started to flow again as he remembered that day when he pushed Jin out of his apartment. He noticed how the rings now were in a loop together…

~*~

That a hero lies in you
Mmm, that a hero lies in you

~*~

Teary eyes allowed more tears to flow and Kame smiled as he slipped the pinky rings onto his pinky, then sliding them back out and into the box, closing its lid.

Ne, Jin… will you come back to me? If I listen to I Still Believe?

It seems like a trend that no one writes song fics anymore LOL or maybe because of copyright issues? But yes to credit this great song, It was one of Mariah Carey Classics - Hero. 

 (Chapter 6) / (Chapter 5)  / (Chapter 4) /(Chapter 3) / (Chapter 2) / (Chapter 1) 

FINAL CREDITS: I has many inspirations from many things but it was very hard for me to get into the mood and write especially with this fic where i wanted everyone to least cry a buck of tear (breaks being thrown) and i hoppe i accomplished it....you might find some things that are similar...i kinda took a plot from autumn's love in the korean drama and the I-want-to-cry-out-love-in-the-center-of-the-universe drama (if anyone knows that drama in japanese i will lovely replace oit) thank you again my beta-sans and all those who had supported this fic....Will try to return for more =)

Hot Hot Summa! Hot Hot Summa!~
I've been listening to Takcey and Tsubasa-sama too much now have their music in my mind alot....

Some Quinie Updates...
~ Getting Ready for Grad School
~ I'm a Teacher now...
~ I'm in Hong Kong at the mo I knwo I'm everywhere the last time i posted was when i was on exchange...Swizterland was fun I wish i cvould have worte some romantic european fic of akame...
~ I'm going to Taiwan in 2 weeks (Sadly not watching KAT-TUN tho...I was gonna go to Bankok for it before it got cancelled....)
~ I have been having a hard time to write so I am very sorry for very slow updates....I guess it's with the Jin stuff and me not very fangirling KAT-TUN much...it's been disappointing to also see a bunch of my fellow writers and fic-gods not writing anymore it's a little disencouraging....=(

anyways....to my one update since March.... it's been 4 months I am very sorry....
Title: Tatta Hitotsu No Koi
Pairing: Hayaryu (Akame)
Raiting: R/NC-17 (On some chapters)
Disclaimer: IN MY DREAMS...but not AKame and Gokusen owns themselves
Warning: its A SADFIC.....
Summary: Ryu left for Canada Hayato for their own futures two year ago, until Ryu found that....but now he returns to Hayato asking if he can stay with him and have this relationship they have left behind for two months? What does this mean? and What will Hayato do? Is this the one and only love that Hayato and Ryu will face for the rest of their lives?
Summary for Chap 4: A high school reunion recalling great memories and making more to bring to his grave will Ryu be able to finally accept them and then head to a lonely juourney of death?
AN: 3000+ Word again....I'm sorry it has taken so much tome before it can be posted it's great to see everyone again =)
Chapters Done: 6.75
Beta: juuhachi_ art san, karasu-yumi-san, pinkeuphoria1-san
( (Chapter 5) )

Chapter 5
"Are you sure he can go…?” Tssuchi asked,

Hayato shrugged, “He wants to meet Hyuuga’s family. It’s not that far of a ride, he has the money…whatever, Ow! You know that hurts, right? Stupid Rich kid!”

“Brainless bastard,” Ryu snapped back, “You do know the he is sitting next to you,”

Hayato grumbled as he rubbed his head. His personal thought was the same as Tssuchi’s: would Ryu be ok if he travelled with the rest of the guys to visit Hyuuga’s family? Who would look after his health? What would happen if Ryu needed to go to the hospital? He hadn’t been to Hokkaido before, so he was a little worried. He had never really stepped out of this area before his life and the furthest he had gone was to Tokyo or Osaka for his business trips, but Hokkaido? Hayato sighed.

“I’ll be fine…” Ryu added as if he was reading Hayato’s mind, Hayato rolled his eyes but trying not to comment on how his body was doing. However, he could somehow feel that Ryu was happier, maybe because of the change of environment, as he knew he wouldn’t be locked up by his parents. The sudden sense of freedom and the fresh air had made Ryu feel better.

If and only If changing the atmosphere and the air would help cure Ryu’s disease.

~*~

It felt like they were back in high school, together at Kurogin. It felt like that time when the class went on a field trip together before Yankumi came into the picture. Like school boys, the 4 men were excited about Hokkiado, even though Take had gone there for business meetings; he was still excited since he was now going with his friends. The only thing Take didn’t like was the same teasing he received from Tssuchi and Hayato, or Ryu sitting there expressionless, but probably smiling on the inside. It never changed.

“Oi oi oi Take, when are you going to introduce us to your girlfriend?” Tssuchi asked flapping his fan,

“Did you buy the ring yet?” Hayato added,

“…” Ryu was sleeping with his eyes closed; how can a person sleep in such noise?

“Take~! I bet you have a picture of her in your wallet somewhere…” Tssuchi teased a little bit more, smiling,

“Ne, ne…Take, you’re so innocent but have you even kissed her yet?” Hayato asked,

“He’s not like you, pervert,” Ryu suddenly spoke out,

“But you liked it,” Hayato added, smiling,

Ryu’s eyes never opened, but it was obvious on the pale face that Ryu was blushing; he remained silent.

Even now Ryu was defeated; Take was on his own now…

The two stronger and taller men smiled and attacked Take who went screeching and almost screaming for help; the two were grabbing Take, trying to get a hold of his wallet. Passengers in the bullet train were not happy as they stared at the group of men who were supposed to be mature and well-behaved. However, the group never cared. It might have been the last time they would ever meet up as a group, with one probably leaving them forever. The few hours to Hokkaido were full of laughter and happiness for everyone. Ryu smiled happily on the inside as he was able to create such a memory with his friends and with the person he cared the most for.

Hyuuga lived in a small house with his family and his mother. He had started a business in order to be able to feed his family: his mother, his wife and his two girls. The moving business consisted of hard work, but also good money and success while helping out people. Yankumi had taught him to be the right person after all.

Hayato’s scrunched his face at the two little girls, a six year old and an eight year old, both pulling their hair and screaming at each other and trying to catch the attention of their parents. The next minute the girls were like angels, playing on their own in the corner with a hand made doll house.

“I’ve made that doll house,” Hyuuga offering a beer to Hayato who took a sip; Hyuuga smiled as he noticed Hayato looking at his girls with awkward facial expressions, ‘Hayato might not be comfortable with being called an uncle yet,’

“Never thought you’d start a family this early,” Hayato added,

Hyuuga shrugged, “It just happened, me and Kaoru fell in love and then those two creatures appeared,”

“You enjoy being a father though?” Hayato’s eyebrows crooked up,

“I do, it makes me feel like I am wanted in this society, unlike the thoughts we used to have,” Hyuuga smiled, looking at his girls, “Ever thought of a family?”

Hayato shrugged; he would be content with just having Ryu, unless Ryu want to adopt children, but the idea wouldn’t be bad,

“Somehow you being a father would disturb me,” Hyuuga joked as Hayato gave him a frown, “Take might be a better father than you,”

Kaoru asked the girls to help in the kitchen as the girls quickly went to the washroom to clean their hands and helped their mother; later on dinner was served by Kaoru and the girls.

“A toast to the host!” Tssuchi cheered as the others followed,

“Thank you, we also have some good news to say,” Hyuuga announced,

“Ooooo!” Take smiled as he happily sits straight,

Hyuuga coughed to get his voice straight, “We are having a son!”

“Another kid?” Tssuchi and Hayato voiced out, shocked; Ryu smiled,

“When is it due?” Ryu asked,

“Around October,” Kaoru smiled, feeling the little life inside her,

“I’ll be happy if Ryu can be the godfather,” Hyuuga smiled,

“But I’ll-” Ryu wanted to say that he wouldn’t have that much time,

“He’ll be happy to, right, Ryu?” Hayato cut in, staring at Ryu and hinting at him not to say anything negative,

Ryu silently nodded in agreement, although it felt more like being forced to agree.

After dinner, everyone went out to light some fireworks, mostly the girls, Take, Hyuuga’s mother and Kaoru. The rest of the gang stayed on the patio to look at the group, enjoying their beers and talking.

The girls went up to Ryu asking if Ryu would like to play with them, “Ne, ne Ryu-ne, can you play with us?”

Hyuuga blushed in embarrassment and Tssuchi and Hayato could barely stop themselves from bursting into laughter. Ryu just raised his eyebrows… Ryu-ne…wasn’t it obvious by his name that he was male

Ryu sighed, not wanting to scar the girls by telling them that he was male; he let the girls drag him to the garden and saw Take jumping with fireworks, “Oiiiiiiiiii! Ryu, come play with us! And the rest of you guys too!”

Hearing Take’s voice, the rest laughed and ran to play with the fireworks.

They had fun; it felt exactly like those carefree days as their immaturity came out… the times when the group was just sitting in the grass, skipping or running away from Yankumi’s math classes, the times when they played pranks on Yankumi or on the monkey Kyoto, the times during the fireworks festival when they tried to pick up girls in nice kimonos, but the girls only talked to Ryu and never to the rest. It was just plain fun during those old days. 

The girls suggested that they should play kick the can game, “Ne ne otou!~ Play the kick the can game!”

“I can’t believe you taught them how to play that lame game,” Hayato eyed Hyuuga,

“Well, helps them to get their energy out,” Hyuuga shrugged,

“You’ve taught them well, just like Yankumi would,” Ryu smiled,

“Well it’s all thanks to Kaoru,” Hyuuga gave a brief hug to Kaoru who sat next to him. Kaoru smiled as she pat her tummy, telling the girls to get ready for bed, at which the girls pouted and frowned, wanting to play, but listened to their mother in the end.

“You must be tired too,” Hayato looked at Ryu, “We had a loooooong day,”

Ryu smiled as he was led to the bedroom they would share.

Ryu stretched out his hand as if telling Hayato to join him. Hayato smiled and reluctantly took the hand and sat in the bed, wrapping his arms around the fragile body. He looked at the pale face that was smiling at him. It only took Ryu lying down on the bed and Hayato on top, looking down at him, to make Hayato lose control. Ryu, having his arms wrapping around his neck and pushing Hayato down so that their lips could meet… Hayato accepted the invitation without hesitating.

The kiss got deeper with tongues rolling, lips sucking and teeth nibbling. Ryu was loosing his breath as more of his oxygen was being taken away through the kiss, but Ryu didn’t care if he couldn’t breathe anymore; he could just die under Hayato if he had the feeling of Hayato kissing him forever with him.

It just felt so right… Hayato was able to forget what was happening around him as he slipped his hand down, feeling the body beneath him. He moved under the white shirt, feeling the body that was building heat from the ministrations that he was doing to the other one. His fingers danced around the smooth skin, allowing his fingertips to memorize the places where Ryu would moan louder or twitch under him.

Hayato slipped one of his legs between his thighs as Ryu spread his legs a little more and grinded into him. Hayato growled as he grinded back, forgetting about anything except trying to give pleasure and losing his control onto his lover. He would give everything he had to make his only one feel like in heaven and make him think of only him. Hayato’s possessiveness and control over Ryu was getting even more heated up as he desperately kissed Ryu deeper, pulling the shirt open.

His hands were now everywhere as Hayato pinched and flicked over a pink nipple, pulling at it to make it more sensitive to his touch. His mouth was biting his collarbones as it reaches his other bud and his tongue rolled and pressed down to give it moisture, also giving small bites with his teeth.

Ryu moaned as he twisted and grinded up to the other body; his most heated area was rubbing against Hayato’s groin. He desperately needed something to make him feel whole, to be one with the one he loves. The sound of his zipper and the button being unbuckled was driving him crazy and Ryu thrashed even more as a hand touched him down there.

“Haya…Hayato…” Ryu breathed as he took another deep breath. Hayato had his hand under his briefs, finally feeling the warm skin there and helping him relax, though the heat in his body was building up.

A sound of loud laughter was laughing on the other side of the wall. It was the girls of Hyuuga.

Hayato stopped after hearing the laughter as he woke up from his control.

They were almost making love in his friend’s house. And while sleeping next to the girls’ room, with thin walls.

Hayato wanted to pull his hand away until he felt a pair of hands keeping it there. Hayato looked down at the heated stare that could still make him loose control; his eyes moved away, telling himself to calm down before he would be trapped by the attractive creature beneath him.

“I…can be quieter…” Ryu blushed as his face also turned onto his side, “You can still continue…”

Hayato looked down at Ryu and the sight made him loose even more control as the neck and chest were revealed even more; the red spots on Ryu’s collarbones were turning even redder and would probably bruise tomorrow… the marks that would show that Ryu belonged to him.

Ryu belonging to him…How would it feel if he and Ryu became one?

But would it make Ryu be in more pain?

“Hayato…” Ryu spread his legs even more, allowing more of Hayato to be placed between him; he smiled as Ryu invited him to continue, using his waist to press up to invite a deeper kiss from his lover.

Telling him to continue on…Telling him it was okay to be one…

But it wasn’t okay…

What if he hurt Ryu? What if he started feeling pain? What if…

Hayato groaned as he rolled off with his back facing Ryu, trying not to get himself heated up more; the other frowned and almost looked like he was going to cry.

“Hayato…?” Ryu asked as he reached to out,

“Don’t…the girls are next door…” Hayato said, trying to put an excuse between them; he would not loose control here.

“Good night then…” Hayato heard a sniff from the latter and felt the covers being pulled over other’s body.

The couple had their backs against each other though not able to fall asleep, both still pretty heated up and longing to be with each other.

Hayato could hear the other breathing deeply, and then a moan of frustration.

The moan just made him snap.

He quickly turned to Ryu and moved on top of him. Ryu was still unclothed, with his shirt now removed but pants still unbuttoned and now a wet spot in front of his lover’s underwear.

That drove Hayato insane.

He pressed himself down as he kissed Ryu deeply, taking Ryu’s breath away; he reach down to grab Ryu’s erection as he rubbed it up and down.

Ryu’s eyes widened as he felt the stroke of Hayato’s fingers, wrapping him around and moving up and down. His erection was pulled out from the restrain of his underwear as Hayato stroked it up and down freely, using his thumb to rub the tip.

“Hayato…ah….” Ryu whispered as he was stroked faster and also feeling another hand on his bottom; one of his cheeks was squeezed and massaged; Ryu just moaned, feeling heated up again.

Hayato took the swollen lips again, taking the moans into him as his right hand moved more under Ryu to grab the other cheek and massage it thoroughly, his left hand not stopping as he stroked faster and faster.

Ryu breathed in quickly, taking air from his lover’s mouth, trying to ask for Hayato to give him what he needed as he finally felt one of the other’s hands pushing through the crack and touching him…there. Inside of him.

And that was when Ryu moaned loudly and released himself on Hayato’s hand.  

With Ryu still catching his breath, Hayato quickly went to the washroom to clean his hands and calm himself down.

Hayato returned as he quickly grabbed the covers and got under them, not allowing himself to see the body again or else he would loose control. Still feeling uncomfortable, he turned around, but the kitten was so stubborn it continued to provoke his owner as Ryu wrapped his arms Hayato and leaned his head onto his back.

“Ne… Hayato… have you ever thought of starting a family?” Ryu asked, trying to keep his lover talking,

Hayato shrugged, “You do know my family is not one of those nice, special ones…”

“Neither was mine…” Ryu replied, “But it was still special when your mother was still around,”

Hayato sighed, remembering his sweet mother and the time when Ryu entered his family. His mother had loved Ryu as if he was her own; maybe she had already seen that Ryu might have been his future half. He smiled, agreeing with his mother on that, if she had even thought about it.

“Your father wasn’t much of an asshole until we got older…” Hayato grumbled,

“How many kids would you want?” Ryu changed the subject,

Hayato scrunched his eyebrows, “Hmmm, two maybe?”

Ryu smiled, “Two boys?”

Hayato shrugged, “Never thought of the gender…” turning around and smiling, he moved on top of Ryu and kissed the lips lightly, “You giving me any?”

Ryu rolled his eyes, turning his head as he tried to hide his blush, “Don’t be stupid,”

Hayato crooked his eyebrow and moved next to Ryu, “I want a boy and girl then,”  he replied, holding Ryu’s waist tightly as he trapped the kitten, kissing the ear, “A girl like her mother, beautiful and smart, mmmm and sexy too…and a son just like me,”

Ryu laughed, “I don’t think I can handle another crazy kid, as stupid as you,”

Hayato pouted, “Ryuuuuu”

This time Ryu rolled his back onto Hayato, “Just sleep Hayato,”

Allowing Hayato to sleep, Ryu stood still as he heard the breaths turn into steady ones and then looked at the calm face but was still unhappy. Hayato hadn’t taken him, but the feeling was just great; how he wished he could also make Hayato feel that good like when the other had touched him… how nice would it be to become one and feel pleasure together.

If and only if his body could withstand it…

But his body couldn’t, unfortunately.

His life was Hayato’s though. So was his soul, his mind, his heart…but sadly what he can give is so limited in time.

Ryu sighed as he closed his eyes too, hoping that maybe there would be one other time when they would finally become one.

Right now he could still be satisfied dreaming that they were…

In the middle of the night, Hayato’s cell phone suddenly started vibrating, again and again but no one picked up.

In the silence, no one had answered… all were caught in their dreams.

(Chapter 3) / (Chapter 2) / (Chapter 1)